So, you have managed to find my dream journal.
I don't have lucid dreams, and I don't dream every night. They don't generally have people I know, and when they do those people usually have different personalities, sort of like my brain just grabs their phenotype as a placeholder. I never have sex in them. Nevertheless, I dream with an amazing clarity that often makes me wonder about the structure of the world.
For many years I have tried to write down my dreams; for a long time I would post them quasi-anonymously to the yam bulletin board and then save off the posts, just to capture the timestamps. But I stopped reading yam a long time ago, so there are some big gaps where I have no dreams written down. Browsing the blog makes that obvious; I have imported all the saved posts.
Here, are those dreams that I had the presence of mind to write down upon awakening, or managed to remember later in the day. They are not censored... while I do control what is written here, I decided there wasn't much point if I didn't relate what I had actually been dreaming. They are not open for commentary... this blog is a dream journal for me, not a discussion board for others.
I can't really disentangle 2 separate dreams from this morning, I can't recollect how or if they linked together.
in one, we were on some sort of airship, with lot sof steampunklike mechanical devices. there were three corridors, port, center, starboard, and a malevolent power was taking over. there was some chase through the corridors where I was either trying to confront or avoid the energy crackling through tall the mechanics. there was way more to this part but it faded out.
in the other, I was hanging out with two guys - this could possibly be after debarking the airship. there were others, but the point was there was some sort of gauntlet / challenge to run, and we were waiting to find out when and where. we were on the beach at night. we found out it was across a lagoon, but somehow the water level was 4 stories up? there was a sea wall holding it back. there was some sort of permeable membrane between wall supports that made me think of a parking structure. the guys I was with decided just to swim across the lagoon. I was pretty concerned at the notion of swimming across 40' deep waters in the dark. moreover, starting from the bottom.
I saw it only took 9.5 seconds for them to get across, and they had no reason to expect me not to do this. I started looking for which of the openings I should start swimming from. I had just found it, with a sinking feeling that I would just have to try it and be embarrassed about my inability to tread water, when I woke up.
I lived with Clara and we moved to a new apartment. the place we lived was on wide walls that fell away into nothingness; there were stairs up and down different levels, and no rails to prevent people from falling.
we had moved into new rooms, and decided we wanted a joint chequing account. however for two members of the same sex to get joint account, they first needed dispensation from the Catholic Church. there was a risk to that if the Church had decided you were in a relationship, as a result.
our petition was routed to a rather friendly priest, and he interviewed me. I mentioned that at our previous place we had shared living quarters, and he was very suspicious. I figured by mentioning it up front, I could control the information better than if he brought it up as a result of his investigation. I was wrong.
the priest was nice, but apologetic, and we were denied, unable to have a joint account. however the end result was better than it could have been, because that was the end of the matter.
there was something in the dream about Clara and former military service too, but that faded out.
I was the daughter of someone on the ruling council - and he had died. I did not want to take his place but it did indeed fall to me. I was still getting used to the notion.
it was conjunction - the two satellites were together, and therefore time for the council to meet. I went through the corridors at night, looking for the chambers. somewhere, under all my thoughts, I knew where to go. I took my seat, and business was conducted. the dream skipped through most of it.
what I focussed on was the changes in my life. the "satellites" were really giant airships. the "orbit" was a path they followed around the Indian subcontinent. the map of said orbit was shown very clearly, with the paths of the airships displayed as giant ropes. they met over the eastern himalayas, which is where we were now, and in the southern tip.
MORE...I'm not sure how my dreamscape got here, but I dreamt that we were floating in the Arctic waters. Clara and I had to get from one flotation device onto another, using only a thing that sort of looked like an inflatable pool lounge. I'm not sure if others were there.
for some reason I wasn't even sure of in the dream, I jumped on the pool lounge in such a way that I was pretty immersed. as a result we all ended up in the water trying to hang on to it to stay upright and afloat. I was worried about the temp of the water.
perhaps I passed out. perhaps not. but a very brief time passed and I realized o shit I am still in the water! and, it feels warm. that was how I knew I was chilled through. I got to the other thing and somehow, through sheer force of will, dragged myself out. this was scary becuase now I was wet and cold as the water started to dry off. it took some doing to get Clara to agree.
we were out of the water, and I felt in danger, and suddenly in my parents' bedroom. not as it is now, but as it use to be with the giant bed, and the electric blankets on the bed. it took some convincing to get Clara to climb under the electric blanket, but it was the only hope I had of not dying from the hypothermia.
